Hurt

Friday after school,in Houston,a young man killed himself. He was bullied,tormented,and hurt everyday for being gay.I cant help but cry as I write this.When will it stop?Nobody deserves to be hurt,Nobody deserevs to feel less than valuable,Nobody deserves what he went through.Now,after the fact,Im sure everyone wants to be sorry,fuck your sorry.It eats at my soul to know nobody did anything,this didnt have to happen.This hit close to home,more than I expected it to. I can think back to middle school,when I was 13.How i felt so alone,I didnt feel important, everyone judged me, I would beg for people to leave me alone, I would cry, all I wanted to do was fit in, I knew I was different, I knew others knew I was different as well.But i didnt want to be different.I would feel so ashamed,I would dread going to class,I would dread school.It almost got to the point where I dreaded life.It breaks my heart to know that this boy,whom Ive never met,could have possibly felt a fragment of what I did.I wish I could have been there for you,I wish I could have talked to you,Im sorry.He will never get to feel what I feel now,he will never get to walk into school and feel valuable,he will never get to wake up craving life,he will never have to opportunity to smile,talk,dance,laugh,and not care what anyone else thinks.Apart of me wants whoever bullied him,to go to jail & rot for all eternity,but above I pray that they have taken this as a lesson,this is not a game,you are dealing with peoples lives,and you single handidly threw his away.Even though you didnt pull the trigger,you might as well have,it may have hurt less. Pressure makes diamonds,but it can also burst pipes.