Critical Change

today some things were changed forever,but ironicially i dont feel a big shift.I guess because it was coming all along,things had been different & i knew that.I just didnt want to except it,on the morrow i will wake up,stop the alarm,stop my second alarm,and get dressed for school (Lord willing),with or without her,today wasnt different from yesterday & tommorrow wont be different from today.i guess it was coming all along.i just thought it would have a higher impact.should i mourn? should i rejoice? i feel indifferent.I guess its not so critical,she was disconnected all along,she was there in body,but not much anywhere else.i dont know,maybe its not so critical after all.goodnight honeybee.