
It's been awhile since I had a "real" relationship, & sometimes I'm not sure if that "real" relationship was a REAL relationship (really? I used real a million times, but i digress). In life, it's only natural that you learn from your past experiences. When you fell off a tree, you realized that tree was the devil and you never got back on it again. When you bit a whole jalepeno because you thought you were "Billy Badass" and found out it was hot, you didnt do it again, right? That's how I feel about "Love". Iv'e been shitted on by love so many times, I just don't even make an attempt. I believe it exist, I truly do. But I don't like the process in finding it is excessive. Why can't the love of your life have a label that says "the love of your life", and why can't the dipshit losers have a label that says "dipshit losers"...oh wait, they do...I ♥ Boobies bracelets. (never trust a guy with a I ♥ boobies bracelet...but thats neither here nor there). Bottom line is, Iv'e learned from my mistakes, but I'm afraid that these mistakes have made me guarded. I know my worth, I taught myself that long ago. But who will
"teach me how to love? Who will show me the way to surrender my heart? [Boy] I'm so lost." (A little anthony hamilton for ya)